Day 1 & 2 of the 45 Day Challenge!

 Yesterday I wrote about how I had 45 Days to get in shape for my Engagement Pictures...

I stuck to it on Day one and I was really pleased with myself. I'm starting to think I will actually be able to pull this off!

This was my picture yesterday, and I weighed in at 154 lbs

Yeah... I have been putting off this picture for a LONGGG time!! The last thing I wanted was to take picture proof that I wasn't at the weight I had worked so hard to be at... but here it is!

These past 2 months I have been drinking soda DAILY, eating lots of processed foods and sugar..and all the while over eating daily. It has been BAD. 

I felt like I was out of control..that I couldn't change again. 

But Yesterday I proved to myself that it was possible! I COULD get back to where I needed to be!

Today I weighed in at 152! Yes - I know the 2 lb loss was just bloating and water weight coming off from the clean eating but it felt GREAT to know that even one day makes a difference!

 To celebrate the 1 day of progress, I made this delicious salad. 

Here's to change, progress and 44 more days!

Dani

44 Days

It's been no secret that ever since I got engaged, I slipped up on my diet and workout routines. 

After Christmas this year (my usual splurge season) I just couldn't get my eating back on track. 

I fell farther and farther away from the person I had worked so hard to become. 

So here's the deal.. I gained about 10 pounds. 

Here's the other deal: I have 44 Days until Jeff and I are taking ENGAGEMENT PICTURES!

 I wishhh more than anything that I had the foresight to take them in November right after we got engaged.... BUT I didn't. So now I have 44 days to get engagement picture ready!

I had allot of excuses that I've been too busy with school... But in reality I had plenty of free time. 

Well I start a new job this week.. a new job where I work EARLY Mornings and Afternoons!

YIKES!

I'm really going to have to buckle down on my eating if I want this to work, and start taking better advantage of the little bits of free time I will have. 

I started using a NEW FITNESS APP that is SO COOL! It's Called Pump Up and its a fitness APP that works just like Instagram, except it is specifically for people to log their workouts, food, and progress. 

Follow me on there:

http://pumpup.co/thatfitnesschic

I am going to start keeping track of my food and exercise like I used to, and it will be easy for me to update there daily :)

I am SO EXICTED that I have this 44 day wake up call to get me back where I need to be!

xoxo

Dani

Upsizing - The Down Side of It

I have not been dedicated to my health and fitness plan for some time now. 

It's weird how weight kind of sneaks up on you.. Each little bit you gain doesn't seem like a big deal, but all of a sudden BAM! You have reached the point where there are major problems. 

I hit that point today. I was trying to find something to wear and nothing was fitting. I started to panic a little - then I went to the scale. 

Last year at this time I weighed around 138-140 but I was doing crossfit so I was pretty lean and muscley. 

This year I weigh TEN POUNDS more than that. Most of the weight is sitting awkwardly around my stomach and inner thighs. 

All my "skinny" clothes I bought over the last 2 years no longer fit me. 

Now that spring has arrived here in Arizona, I can no longer hide under my layers of loose winter clothing. 

I am heartbroken that I let myself get this far. That I let myself go and stopped working out. 

I'm sad that I spent SO LONG to get where I was, and I wasted it away in about 4 months. 

I'm just so darn busy with school, and I'm having a CRAZY hard time balancing everything. 

I've also always been an emotional eater, and that was something I was learning to control when I was taking better care of my body. 

My wedding planning has been such a nightmare - worse than any cheesy wedding movie I have ever seen. 

I have never felt so stressed and lost in my whole life,  and I have definitely been turning to food as a release to make me feel better. 

I have made up so many excuses as to why I should be able to eat whatever I want and why I have no time to workout, I could not even list them all. 

I am writing this post as a cry for help... to myself and from the people around me who support me. 

I feel like I have "hit rock bottom" as they say - and I want desperately to get back to where I was. 

Not even the weight... I want to get back to that healthy and happy mindset. I want to get back the feeling of comfort I felt in my own skin. I want that feeling of accomplishment and awesomeness after finishing a hardcore workout. I want to get my life back! My healthy life! The one where I was training for a triathlon, I had proudly run a spartan race and I had been known by all my friends and classmates as the girl that does crossfit and eats gluten-free. 

I need a serious priority check and I need it quick. I feel like this is the 3rd post now where I've written about how I've let myself go. I'm hoping this is the last one!

Here's to change. 

A change in diet, a change of mindset, a change of priorities and a change of spirit. 

I know what I want and I know how to get it, I've done it before!

-Dani

Sick.

After I wrote my last post, I was SO excited to finally be doing what I needed to be doing. 

Eating healthy, back on the exercise train, determined...

Then the next day I woke up SICK. 

Of course. 

Not just a cold, but a fever with a disgusting sore throat that makes swallowing seem like an impossible feat, a cough that sounds like the rasping of an old man who has been locked in a damp dark dungeon and has not seen the light of day for many years...

Okay, maybe I'm being a little over dramatic, but the moral of the story is that I have NOT been working out because I feel about as good as a sack of crap and when I do anything remotely physical I end up bent in half coughing until my lungs feel like that can no longer produce an adequate supply of air. 

(yes, I am a bit of a drama queen). 

Some good news that came out of this, I cancelled ALL plans to focus on getting healthy and my mom forced me to go search for bridal gowns in my spare time. 

I was hesitant at first, because I've gained weight and I was sick so I was hardly done up very prettily, (and the dresses looked WAY better when I was done up nicer). 

But I wouldn't believe it if I hadn't seen it myself, I FOUND MY DRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After trying on over 35 different dresses from 4 different Bridal boutiques I found my dress at a discount store that I thought I would hate but I absolutely LOVED!

My dress made me feel like a princess and I can't wait to see it when it's finished being altered. (I am adding sleeves). I WISH I could share a picture here but I'm afraid Jeff might see it! (not that he reads this very often anyways). 

So even though I feel like crap and may be visiting the inside of an Urgent Care today, something good has come out of being sick!

I feel so much closer to being married! Somehow just buying the dress has made this all seem so much more real. 

YAY. 

-Dani

I Did It!

Thank you for all the encouraging and sweet comments on my last post. That was an extremely hard post to write and even harder to publish. You guys are really an amazing Support group to me!!

Yesterday I stuck to my goals of getting my eating back on track and I jogged a mile. 

Breakfast Smoothie! Strawberry, Pineapple & Yogurt

I carried a Glass of Lemon Water with me ALL DAY! Here's to hoping that it boosts my metabolism! (and don't you love the new cup Fiance got me for Christmas??)

For Lunch I ate a Huge Italian Salad with grilled chicken, Red onions and a Sprinkling of Cheese

After a Dinner of Pork, Green Beans and Sweet Potatoes, I went for my mile jog! It went great, aside from the yucky feeling in your chest that jogging in the cold gives you. 

So I am back where I need to be! It feels good to control your portions, to plan your meals and have no regrets after eating.

Today I started my day with some weight loss Yoga from Home! I had no idea that my TV could play YouTube Videos! The Possibilities for at home workouts now seem endless!

- Dani

New Year, New Challenges.

It's time for me to be honest with myself. 

It seems that its so easy to pretend that your body isn't changing

That you can eat whatever you want like the rest of your  friends and family

but then you start wearing sweat pants more often and baggier and baggier T shirts. 

You start to be in denial why your jeans get too tight. 

You start to lie to yourself daily - TOMORROW I will do better. 

I'm so sad to say that I Gained Weight. 

Weight that I worked SO HARD to lose. 

It took me almost a year to lose 19 pounds by eating healthy and exercising daily. 

But ever since I went to Disneyland in October, I haven't been able to reign in my eating habits. I haven't been able to stop finding excuses not to workout and not to have to eat clean and reasons why it would be okay to get a cookie with my salad at paradise....

I could feel myself slipping slowly into my old habits. Lying to myself and the people around me. Binge eating daily. Treating everyday as a cheat day. Using the Holidays as an excuse to eat like I was at a buffet. 

But I did all of these things. I did it and I was too ashamed and scared to step onto the scale. I kept thinking that I would go back to eating healthy and that I would go back to the way I was before. But of course it's not that easy. I finally had the courage to weigh myself today and I've gained 10 pounds. 

TEN POUNDS that took me MONTHS to lose. 

10 pounds I lost by WORKING MY BUTT OFF in a CrossFit gym that I no longer have the time or money for. 

10 Pounds that came from ordering salads when everyone else was ordering pasta, from eating fruit when everyone else ate ice cream, from prepping meals at night when everyone else was watching T.V.

I think you get the picture. Those 10 pounds were hard work, and I feel like I've just thrown in all down the drain. 

I remembered a quote that used to fuel me in the beginning. It was: "Eat to live, don't live to eat". I feel like I used to really know what that meant. I used to live by it. I would feel bad for the people around me who were fueled by the food they would get to eat, so excited for the dessert. 

I would feel power from turning down the bread and I would feel more motivated the more I stuck to my eating plan. 

Tomorrow I start, I mean REALLY start going back to the habits I had worked so hard to acquire. 

I will eat clean, healthy and fresh foods. 

I'm starting a new challenge to motivate me to workout daily (even if its not a crossfit wod) called the Spartan 30. 

I will take new pictures of me at my new weight -  even though I am extremely embarrassed that I let this happen and that I am not the person I wanted to be this year. 

Its 2014, and I hope to be able to make the most of it. 

- Dani